Love

I am in the third day of a mining field trip. I am in the middle of the desert and sleep in cramped quarters with seven other guys.

I just feel so fucking lonely

so lonely

and i dont know why. i think maybe the sleep deprivation and stress and the fact im constantly put into these social situations is just getting to me. or maybe its omething else. maybe, i want a girl to be with, and this field trip is making me strongly aware of how shit i am at socialising, and hence how low my chances of being with her are. maybe i simply hate talking to strangers just to network for assignments and jobs. i walked into the room quietly when all the other guys were out eating and i started to just sob quietly, and tears came out of my eyes. this loneliness is so painful.

 

I am in the third day of a mining field trip. I am in the middle of the desert and sleep in cramped quarters with seven other guys.

I just feel so fucking lonely

so lonely

and i dont know why. i think maybe the sleep deprivation and stress and the fact im constantly put into these social situations is just getting to me. or maybe its omething else. maybe, i want a girl to be with, and this field trip is making me strongly aware of how shit i am at socialising, and hence how low my chances of being with her are. maybe i simply hate talking to strangers just to network for assignments and jobs. i walked into the room quietly when all the other guys were out eating and i started to just sob quietly, and tears came out of my eyes. this loneliness is so painful.

It`s not that hard m8y, I think you just picture the problem bigger than it is. Girls ain`t better than boys. You think you have mistakes, they have too and they`re aware of it. They just want to have fun and they think sometimes as dirty and selfishly as boys. Don`t think they are princesses and unreachable. Don`t fear of being dumped it`s not so bad. You`ll reject and be will be rejected, that`s how life is. I know, I was rejected, but also rejected other girls too myself - really nothing to be ashamed of. You`ll have more and more confidence in time, and you`ll find someone who makes you happy eventually.

 

I am in the third day of a mining field trip. I am in the middle of the desert and sleep in cramped quarters with seven other guys.

P.S. LiveJournal is thataway.

 

I just love how sympathetic, heartfelt, compassionate, and sensitive your posts are, Fabulous.

 

What can I say, I just love it when people turn the forums into their personal blog.

 

:3c oh u~

 

I've learned all I really need is online furfag friends I can talk to every night and make empty awkward sexual advances towards, but even that's been collapsing lately. Baww.

 

it's ok yakkers, I'll still be here to make awkward sexual advances towards you

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<3

 

Same with me bbycakes ;D

 

I never encounter awkwardness online. It just seems counter intuitive knowing the fact that there's no real body language or physical interaction. Well, it's still interaction but it eliminates the risk of feeling awkward. Just my opinion

 

You obviously have no idea what it feels to be the only female (save Meta) and get hit on by a good amount of sweaty internet nehds (no offense gaiz)

 

Hehe, you know you guys are why I still come to this place <3

To go into more detail because I'm in the mood to type out my life story, I let that stuff become a little more than "empty" with one person. So then for about four months I thought we were kind of "reserved" for eachother, especially since he both implied and directly said he felt the same. But then I found he went for somebody else by seeing them play the game we all play together without telling me, under the names ___<3s___ and the inverse. >.>

We talked and he says he'd rather just be friends with everybody and that they broke it off with eachother, but regardless of that I can clearly see they've become much better friends than he and I, and that really hurts.
i.e. they're constantly talking on Skype and I never got to do that, he almost never talks to me unless I say something first (which makes me feel like a nuisance), they're always playing games with just eachother, etc.

So yeah, I've been feeling kind of empty lately, even though the main thing has blown over. Him constantly telling me that I'm one of his closest online friends mixed with the heavy implications that that isn't really the case has really been wearing me down.

I know it all sounds stupid, but all this internet stuff is my happy place and escape from the world so I really need to have that one person to obsess over I guess. I've sort of learned that I need to break away from that.

INB4 TL;DR/GO OUTSIDE

 

No image macro here, because it sounds familiar to me.
But outside is pretty cool, maybe check it out some time.

 

You obviously have no idea what it feels to be the only female (save Meta) and get hit on by a good amount of sweaty internet nehds (no offense gaiz)

Considering that this happens on nearly every other site on the internet it's not that hard to get a fair idea, but it's still entirely your fault for not willingly choosing to be a dude before you were born

Plenty of other people do it

 

Fourth, and pretty much final day of mining field trip. Everyone getting fucking drunk and being noisy. I don't drink but its sorta funny how they all act.

I wish I was Quote. I wih I was a brave robot soldier, who can jump four times his height, shooting his pistol and machine gun and pumping lead into huge bosses and carrying the sexy beautiful girl on his shoulders as they fight through hell together.

 

 

 

My day = made.

 

You obviously have no idea what it feels to be the only female (save Meta) and get hit on by a good amount of sweaty internet nehds (no offense gaiz)

don't worry wd i'd NEVER hit on you

 

it's still entirely your fault for not willingly choosing to be a dude before you were born

Plenty of other people do it

I tried, man. I tried.


And thanks Woodenrat. I'm glad you find no attractive quality in me whatsoever like I do

(No I am not mad)