I searched up the average lifespan of a computer and apparently mine is in its senior years (4 years old). No wonder it is the computer equivalent to that stupid fanmade deltarune sprite of Jevil in a wheelchair.
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Man is it hot outside. I ain't gonna deal with the heat. I'm better off having a colder room.
I get the sneaking suspicion that this swan song mod project I'm currently working on is gonna be polarizing. I'm so incredibly excited and driven to be working on this (something I haven't felt since 2017-2018), I genuinely think that what I have here is really special, and to the rare few I've shared it with there's been positive reception (despite still ironing out a lot of details), but there's this nagging feeling that there is going to be a percentage of people that absolutely will not like it at all. This gut feeling I'm making something that—while a lot of people within our community will enjoy and praise (assuming I successfully execute my design doc as I envision)—there's also going to be a good chunk of reasonable people, users here that I respect, that will just utterly not enjoy the story and world that I've been crafting. This project feels like I'm climbing up a waterfall: Everybody says not to do it, many have tried in the past with no success, and yet my hubris is the assumption that I'm going to be able to succeed because of some unique interpretation to the problems involved. An interpretation that nobody expects or wanted, and so it is uncertain if it will be accepted at all.
Perhaps this will be silly in hindsight, but right now I genuinely can not tell if this is just normal creative insecurity or a realistic realization of the nature of what it is that I'm attempting here. It's not a fear that "nobody will like this" or about random ""haters"", but that I'm making something that goes against what people want and expect and so the execution has to be flawless to convince them otherwise. There's a lot on my mind with working on this. (Also sorry about being vague as I always do. As per my usual I don't want to share details until this is far enough along in tangibility. I just needed to write these thoughts down somewhere).
Perhaps this will be silly in hindsight, but right now I genuinely can not tell if this is just normal creative insecurity or a realistic realization of the nature of what it is that I'm attempting here. It's not a fear that "nobody will like this" or about random ""haters"", but that I'm making something that goes against what people want and expect and so the execution has to be flawless to convince them otherwise. There's a lot on my mind with working on this. (Also sorry about being vague as I always do. As per my usual I don't want to share details until this is far enough along in tangibility. I just needed to write these thoughts down somewhere).
today, i beat tower of heaven.
This is going to be the last time I make a profile post even remotely related to my problems.
I truly apologize for making these profile posts. I shouldn't have brought any of this upon any of you. It's my suffering, not yours, and it's already probably become clear to all of you that you can't help me.
By making these posts, I have driven you away from me, I have made you uncomfortable, I have made you dislike me, I have annoyed you, and I have made you lose respect for me.
I've kept these feelings in for so long before I started making posts like this, and it has been getting to where I can't keep any of it in anymore, but that doesn't excuse any of it.
I've lately been contemplating seeking a therapist, but to be honest, I don't think even they will be able to help me.
From now on, I am not going to vent about my problems on here, or anywhere, unless it's with someone in private. None of you should have to be dragged down into this hell with me.
I truly apologize for making these profile posts. I shouldn't have brought any of this upon any of you. It's my suffering, not yours, and it's already probably become clear to all of you that you can't help me.
By making these posts, I have driven you away from me, I have made you uncomfortable, I have made you dislike me, I have annoyed you, and I have made you lose respect for me.
I've kept these feelings in for so long before I started making posts like this, and it has been getting to where I can't keep any of it in anymore, but that doesn't excuse any of it.
I've lately been contemplating seeking a therapist, but to be honest, I don't think even they will be able to help me.
From now on, I am not going to vent about my problems on here, or anywhere, unless it's with someone in private. None of you should have to be dragged down into this hell with me.
extremely brief progress update for evergreen: finally finished the graphic for an optional cutscene... and promptly realised that it being the only one of its kind makes it stick out, so i'm thinking of having an optional CG cutscene in each area - 4 in total (beginning area (though maybe that's covered by the intro image?), each 3 teleporter locations), not including the planned joke ending, but we'll see...
i've also been working on cleaning up/implementing sidequests, and generally polishing stuff, but if i give a deadline for this update's release i will 100% miss it so i'll just finish this off with a 'it's still being worked on lol'
i've also been working on cleaning up/implementing sidequests, and generally polishing stuff, but if i give a deadline for this update's release i will 100% miss it so i'll just finish this off with a 'it's still being worked on lol'
Composing music LIVE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9M085Xqj9w&ab_channel=Infinityβ
I was delusional for thinking I was good at composing music.
i got jebaited 
geany turned out to be a giant blue guy who'll give me 3 wishes and not a coding software? who knew?!
geany turned out to be a giant blue guy who'll give me 3 wishes and not a coding software? who knew?!
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WITH THIS!?
EAT IT??
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE GROUUUND.
Hopefully, I would be able to release Journal Log 3 by the end of August.
finished silent hill origins last night
10/10 game you can beat up horrible flesh monsters with your bare fists
10/10 game you can beat up horrible flesh monsters with your bare fists
It's been 2 years since I've lost logged in here, and soon to be 8 years since I've first signed up here
and I think after all this time I need to come out with my truth.. I've never actually beaten or got far into Cave Story
and I think after all this time I need to come out with my truth.. I've never actually beaten or got far into Cave Story
99 botttles of bier on the wall
99 bottles of bear
take one down, pass it around
99 bottles of bear
take one down, pass it around
You know you're horrible when you made Pixel uncomfortable. 
FUCK EVERYTHING. FUCK MY LIFE. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
casually doodling and having a ginormous headache. I wanna work on CS stuff but honestly I'm too tired.