I get the sneaking suspicion that this swan song mod project I'm currently working on is gonna be polarizing. I'm so incredibly excited and driven to be working on this (something I haven't felt since 2017-2018), I genuinely think that what I have here is really special, and to the rare few I've shared it with there's been positive reception (despite still ironing out a lot of details), but there's this nagging feeling that there is going to be a percentage of people that absolutely will not like it at all. This gut feeling I'm making something that—while a lot of people within our community will enjoy and praise (assuming I successfully execute my design doc as I envision)—there's also going to be a good chunk of reasonable people, users here that I respect, that will just utterly not enjoy the story and world that I've been crafting. This project feels like I'm climbing up a waterfall: Everybody says not to do it, many have tried in the past with no success, and yet my hubris is the assumption that I'm going to be able to succeed because of some unique interpretation to the problems involved. An interpretation that nobody expects or wanted, and so it is uncertain if it will be accepted at all.
Perhaps this will be silly in hindsight, but right now I genuinely can not tell if this is just normal creative insecurity or a realistic realization of the nature of what it is that I'm attempting here. It's not a fear that "nobody will like this" or about random ""haters"", but that I'm making something that goes against what people want and expect and so the execution has to be flawless to convince them otherwise. There's a lot on my mind with working on this. (Also sorry about being vague as I always do. As per my usual I don't want to share details until this is far enough along in tangibility. I just needed to write these thoughts down somewhere).