See? All anyone wants to make is their own mods and things. That's okay, that's what Agora's Legends is supposed to be used for... My point still stands about releasing the source code, though.
It's not about ego. I know full well the limitations of my ability. I originally could not program proper collision code because I suck so hard. So I specificly made gravity and collisions scripted so anyone else could mess with it, and you still say it is not something you could fix with scripting alone?
The only things I had not intended to be scripted were the game state machine, drawing, and network code... If you really want to mess with those, you're totally free to, but I'd like to at least know I can trust you first. You seem neither willing to go to my message board to post related ideas, nor meet with me in private, so I am left without means. The more people are around, the more I tend to fade away.
As I previously stated, my decisions are merely defensive. That's all there is to it. I am a very defensive person, as I've grown up learning that the only thing I can do is run away. If I do anything other than run away and hide, people misunderstand me and go against me. Just as you do now.
If you want specific examples, I had helped Shuffle learn to program to a large extent. Shuffle made the beginnings of Soviet Russia Blast 2, but I had to fix every other thing because of the way he made it. (and lacking several "if" statements, leading to death pits being broken even outside of the game mode) He then went off to make Shufflarb2, which everyone seems to agree is soooo much better than my stuff ... even though it is directly based off mine.
Or more relevant to the present, nmn showed up in the #Doukutsu channel recently-ish, I was happy to give him the hookup to work with me, he tried to totally rewrite the network code and the sound system code to use different libraries in a very hack-ish way (and when put simply, failed on both counts, though I managed to save the sound system with a little work and surely the network code would take only a larger bit more) then disappeared.
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On the other hand, the more you guys make me out to be the badguy in all this, the more tempted I am to simply dump the source code here and say "You know what? Fuck it, here's your source code, I'm out." ... of course, the project would probably go poof at that point, ... but I do still want to work on it... Bah. I really don't want to do that.
I need not mention a deleted thread as another form of being unwilling to help me, as I worded it all wrong... but it was only a thread after all.
I suppose there is little point in explaining how I feel (as a whole) in detail, so I will only say that I had a dream in which I was being bombed by one of my best friends because I was not a citizen of canada. It stings a bit, to be attacked by "friends".