what the fuck bro
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cave story?
things have happened today! wow!
- i have aged (21! holy shit! nothing interesting happens at 21 over here in terms of legal rights 'cause we get pretty much all that stuff at 18 but hey, milestone's a milestone)
- i have been on HRT for one year (woah! transgender 2 unlocked!)
- i have finally been motivated to work on evergreen again (paused development for a while due to picking up extra shifts at work as well as modfest)
- i have aged (21! holy shit! nothing interesting happens at 21 over here in terms of legal rights 'cause we get pretty much all that stuff at 18 but hey, milestone's a milestone)
- i have been on HRT for one year (woah! transgender 2 unlocked!)
- i have finally been motivated to work on evergreen again (paused development for a while due to picking up extra shifts at work as well as modfest)
FUCK YOU LINUX I GOT CAVE EDITOR TO RUN 
I decided to change profile avatar. This artwork was made by a good friend of mine. Doesn't this look cool?
i should probably get into spelunky again.
#fuark #zyzz #umirin
I am broken. Unending despair has consumed me. Nothing you say can change that.
Every project I've been involved in previously has failed. I'm a fraud because I make something and don't finish it. Project Ampersand was never finished because I'm incompetent. Someone wanted me to compose the soundtrack for a version of their Cave Story, mod. I've only finished a few tracks, and it takes me way too long. I wouldn't be surprised if I've been replaced by a certain someone because I never finish anything.
What will likely happen after I'm 18 is that I'll never be able to make that game I want to make a reality, and I'll be stuck spending the rest of my life with a shitty job that I'd only get purely for getting money, and rotting away.
I was delusional for ever thinking I could be an indie game developer. I was delusional for ever wanting to achieve anything I wanted to achieve. It's already too late. The majority of other people the same age and even younger are better than me at everything. Some of my friends can code, and I cannot. Somehow, music was the one thing I actually was able to become good at. (Even then, my music isn't noticed much, and everything seems to always be in favor of someone else) I'm lazy, burnt out, and demotivated 24/7, so it's impossible for me to become good at those things.
This is my fate whether I like it or not. I can either put up with it, or die.
Every project I've been involved in previously has failed. I'm a fraud because I make something and don't finish it. Project Ampersand was never finished because I'm incompetent. Someone wanted me to compose the soundtrack for a version of their Cave Story, mod. I've only finished a few tracks, and it takes me way too long. I wouldn't be surprised if I've been replaced by a certain someone because I never finish anything.
What will likely happen after I'm 18 is that I'll never be able to make that game I want to make a reality, and I'll be stuck spending the rest of my life with a shitty job that I'd only get purely for getting money, and rotting away.
I was delusional for ever thinking I could be an indie game developer. I was delusional for ever wanting to achieve anything I wanted to achieve. It's already too late. The majority of other people the same age and even younger are better than me at everything. Some of my friends can code, and I cannot. Somehow, music was the one thing I actually was able to become good at. (Even then, my music isn't noticed much, and everything seems to always be in favor of someone else) I'm lazy, burnt out, and demotivated 24/7, so it's impossible for me to become good at those things.
This is my fate whether I like it or not. I can either put up with it, or die.
It's been while since my last day school. I'm so excited that the next school year is gonna be my last year!
Hereby urging you guys to add me on Steam if you haven't since I'm nuking 'cord: https://steamcommunity.com/id/fatih120
hello everyone. 
Having a broken arm is no fun.
I'm currently playing Yume Nikki and I really want to like it but it's boring going through places I've already explored and I can rarely save. Also there's an NPC that moves quickly and SOFTLOCKS YOU WHEN YOU TOUCH IT. The atmosphere beats off's, though. I just wish that the music was longer because the short loops get really tiring.
Been very into the Atelier series recently, I should've done this way earlier.
Everytime I post an ACSS update and I get immediately alerted with several bugs I want to Kilma Balls
Oh, Steam's "Next Fest" games! Let's see what's coming up... Wow, lots of games... Pretty sure I'll reach the end of the list soon... Thousands more...? ...n o e n d i n s i g h t