I like the show My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. I don't know why and I only like the show, not the other baloney that comes with it (That does not make me a Brony, so there!).
I've just spent two hours in my vacation dorm in the middle of the night writing and rewriting something that I've hidden my entire life from almost everyone who knows me, but I can't get myself to post it, or even be able to explain it.
I'll just say that part of it is that what people see of me is not what truly happens in my head, and I have trouble controlling myself to not act strange when sorting the million different thoughts per second going on inside.
And my worst fear is myself, because my control is seemingly deteriorating.
Is it too embarrassing/shameful to tell a trained professional about or what? If you really think your mind works differently than everyone else's, tell someone who can help you understand and take control of it.
Also that person would probably encourage you to share what you wrote. Just saying. You don't have to trust me on that one, go find out for yourself.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY /\ and pretty much for the same reasoning as the picture above
I've been doing a fair job covering it up around my family, but I feel like utter crap all the time and a lot of self hate. I know if I think about things logically, I have a home, a loving family, and caring friends, but I just....feel so lost, and not in a spiritual aspect even, just like a void that needs filled with something that only one can fill, I don't know who or what, but yeah, it's most certainly there. And all this was brought to my attention after watching that /\. I shouldn't be allowed to watch anime...
I've suffered from depression (+self hatred) and bipolar disorder for about 5 or 6 years now which is similar to what a few other people have said. The bipolar bit isn't usually something that I share 'publicly' because where I live people suffering from it have been persecuted a good deal in the past few years and I've already gotten a good deal of that so best not do anything to get myself anymore, right?
I will every once and a while accidentally call someone mom or dad when I'm talking to them... Also, I smuggle food into my room constantly to the point where my parents have locked the pantry.
Once upon a time, when expressing (x/2)-(y/3)+5=0 in the form ax+by+c=0, I gave the value of b as 1/3. Not -1/3.
Another time, to solve a³+2a=3, I thought I could do a³=3-2a --> (a³/a)=3-(2a/a) --> a²=3-2 --> a=±1. Yes, while dividing both sides by a, I managed to overlook how I didn't divide 3 by a too.
That's how dumb I can be.
One time in Tech, we were taking a ruler test to see if we already knew about rulers, allowing us to skip the unit. The only reason why I didn't get a 100 was because I converted the fractions for inches into decimals, instead of leaving them like that. I instead got a 70, which meant I had to do the unit. Hey, at least the lesson was easy, because I knew that stuff already...
One time in Tech, we were taking a ruler test to see if we already knew about rulers, allowing us to skip the unit. The only reason why I didn't get a 100 was because I converted the fractions for inches into decimals, instead of leaving them like that. I instead got a 70, which meant I had to do the unit. Hey, at least the lesson was easy, because I knew that stuff already...