So uhh, I'm not dead?

I've been thinking about this for a while. Like, 'several years' quite a while. I know I've been "dead" since 2016 or something, but I still anonymously poked my head around every now and then just to see what was going on. I just... chose not to engage, and I think I finally realize why. I made CSR when I was at my worst. I'd been trapped in a bad home situation with no job and no way out. I was seriously contemplating suicide at the time, and ultimately I finally admitted to myself that I needed to come out to my family and transition or I wasn't going to keep my sanity for much longer. Doing this in suburban east tennessee was not easy, but I'm in a much better place now - happily married, even.

I know some of y'all had issues with me, and I apologize. Thinking back, it was never personal, even if I seemed like it was. I always knew CSR was flawed, I just think I didn't want to admit it at the time. I mean hell, I walked away from it, and from here. Despite doing that, every now and then I can't help but to think back to this place and wonder how y'all are doing.

I mean, it's been 10 years. Is everyone still alive?

 

I've been thinking about this for a while. Like, 'several years' quite a while. I know I've been "dead" since 2016 or something, but I still anonymously poked my head around every now and then just to see what was going on. I just... chose not to engage, and I think I finally realize why. I made CSR when I was at my worst. I'd been trapped in a bad home situation with no job and no way out. I was seriously contemplating suicide at the time, and ultimately I finally admitted to myself that I needed to come out to my family and transition or I wasn't going to keep my sanity for much longer. Doing this in suburban east tennessee was not easy, but I'm in a much better place now - happily married, even.

I know some of y'all had issues with me, and I apologize. Thinking back, it was never personal, even if I seemed like it was. I always knew CSR was flawed, I just think I didn't want to admit it at the time. I mean hell, I walked away from it, and from here. Despite doing that, every now and then I can't help but to think back to this place and wonder how y'all are doing.

I mean, it's been 10 years. Is everyone still alive?

Yoo, I dunno if everyone is alive but it's great to have an elder like yourself back! I really hope that you keeping doing well despite your past situation.

 

many people moved on, but i'd say most of us are still alive, at least to some degree?
we might have never interacted directly but i knew you because of your mod, so hey. your project definitely meant something, even if it had its flaws

but more than anything, i'm glad to hear that your situation has improved, and i hope it continues to do so
best wishes from a complete stranger

 

Yooo it's the maker of Redesign! I remember playing that wayyy back in the day. Gosh, it's been like a dozen years already! Man, that was a a creative, grand, epic-scale mod, even if I don't remember too much from it I remember feeling that way.
I'm very sorry to hear about your troubles, and I'm glad you're doing better now. It's really nice to hear from old forum members, even if it's not a long message, it means a lot.
Are you still active online, do you have plans to get back into CS/modding in any capacity?