When I first played Cave Story, it was because I didn't want to work on my creative writing homework. It was really the first time I had an immersive experience with a freeware downloadable game. But the part of Cave Story that truly had the biggest impact on my life was the fact that I installed the old deluxe version, complete with Sue's Workshop and ORG Maker v1.
ORG was my first experience with any sort of DAW. Before this, I was composing music, but I would always record it live, either on a piano or our tiny synthesizer keyboard. I basically nosedived into the program without really knowing how it worked, aside from reading the basic text file the program came with. I tried to transcribe one of my compositions into ORG. It sounded absolutely terrible.
Searching for information about ORG led me to these forums. I saw the ORG showcase thread, got excited and decided to share some basic compositions I'd made that I was really proud of at the time. I saw people giving feedback on other peoples' ORGs and really wanted feedback on mine. But every time I posted something, even if I gave feedback to a previously posted ORG, it would always get ignored. It was like I wasn't even there. Rather than fussing over it, I thought that the reason no one responded to my old ORGs was because no one had anything to say about them. I thought: maybe I didn't make something bad or good enough that people cared about the stuff I made.
Around this time, I was also going through older posts in the thread and getting blown away - sometimes even envious of the ORGs that people were making. I was like,
I want to make music that makes me feel the same way these people's ORGs make me feel and began to study, pick apart ORGs, maybe even sometimes copy parts and mess around with them to find out what it was that made me resonate with them.
I began working in ORG, trying out different things, some of which worked, many of which didn't. Eventually, I joined a music compo (OHC), gradually transitioning to PxTone and then FL Studio. Somewhere around that time, I switched into music composition as my major in university. I'm three quarters of the way through.
I think ORG was definitely my stepping stone into something that I was so passionate about in my life. I don't know how much more different things would have been had I not used it in the first place, but it truly got me into wanting to compose more often than not. At times, I think ORG was also my main entry point into connecting with other users on these forums. Although I tried - and failed miserably - to interact with a good number of people here - I was super afraid of posting things because...maybe people would eat me alive. I went ahead and posted anyway and it happened sometimes! But at the very least, I could just make more ORGs and move on.
It took quite a while, but I did eventually find friends in this community. And I'm extremely grateful for the people whom I've gotten to know really well and the people whom I don't know as well.
Five years have passed and I still have yet to make a mod.
