Masochism - gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one'sown actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification.
I can't call myself wisdom. How did you get that? The blood pressure thing? That is general education. That is it. One thing I notice, you are staying here so long and you make this forum as a chit-chat thingy because.... You have a problem?