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I am broken. Unending despair has consumed me. Nothing you say can change that.
Every project I've been involved in previously has failed. I'm a fraud because I make something and don't finish it. Project Ampersand was never finished because I'm incompetent. Someone wanted me to compose the soundtrack for a version of their Cave Story, mod. I've only finished a few tracks, and it takes me way too long. I wouldn't be surprised if I've been replaced by a certain someone because I never finish anything.
What will likely happen after I'm 18 is that I'll never be able to make that game I want to make a reality, and I'll be stuck spending the rest of my life with a shitty job that I'd only get purely for getting money, and rotting away.
I was delusional for ever thinking I could be an indie game developer. I was delusional for ever wanting to achieve anything I wanted to achieve. It's already too late. The majority of other people the same age and even younger are better than me at everything. Some of my friends can code, and I cannot. Somehow, music was the one thing I actually was able to become good at. (Even then, my music isn't noticed much, and everything seems to always be in favor of someone else) I'm lazy, burnt out, and demotivated 24/7, so it's impossible for me to become good at those things.
This is my fate whether I like it or not. I can either put up with it, or die.
Every project I've been involved in previously has failed. I'm a fraud because I make something and don't finish it. Project Ampersand was never finished because I'm incompetent. Someone wanted me to compose the soundtrack for a version of their Cave Story, mod. I've only finished a few tracks, and it takes me way too long. I wouldn't be surprised if I've been replaced by a certain someone because I never finish anything.
What will likely happen after I'm 18 is that I'll never be able to make that game I want to make a reality, and I'll be stuck spending the rest of my life with a shitty job that I'd only get purely for getting money, and rotting away.
I was delusional for ever thinking I could be an indie game developer. I was delusional for ever wanting to achieve anything I wanted to achieve. It's already too late. The majority of other people the same age and even younger are better than me at everything. Some of my friends can code, and I cannot. Somehow, music was the one thing I actually was able to become good at. (Even then, my music isn't noticed much, and everything seems to always be in favor of someone else) I'm lazy, burnt out, and demotivated 24/7, so it's impossible for me to become good at those things.
This is my fate whether I like it or not. I can either put up with it, or die.
It's been while since my last day school. I'm so excited that the next school year is gonna be my last year!
Hereby urging you guys to add me on Steam if you haven't since I'm nuking 'cord: https://steamcommunity.com/id/fatih120
hello everyone. 
Having a broken arm is no fun.
I'm currently playing Yume Nikki and I really want to like it but it's boring going through places I've already explored and I can rarely save. Also there's an NPC that moves quickly and SOFTLOCKS YOU WHEN YOU TOUCH IT. The atmosphere beats off's, though. I just wish that the music was longer because the short loops get really tiring.
Been very into the Atelier series recently, I should've done this way earlier.
Everytime I post an ACSS update and I get immediately alerted with several bugs I want to Kilma Balls
Oh, Steam's "Next Fest" games! Let's see what's coming up... Wow, lots of games... Pretty sure I'll reach the end of the list soon... Thousands more...? ...n o e n d i n s i g h t
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That moment when you walk like 2km in the rain for an appointment only to find out it's been moved 10 weeks later.
Yesterday, June 9th, my escape from mental torture until August 2nd has began. I am required to have a conference with my teacher on Monday though.
Funnily enough as much as I love Cave Story I’ve only ever played through the DSiware version. Thinking about getting the Switch version soon, haven’t played through the game in quite awhile.
while it's still gonna be a while till i release anything even remotely public, evergreen's latest update has been finished to its demo end screen - meaning i've designed everything up to a natural stopping point and you can play from the beginning of the mod till there... i just have a lot of polishing to do lol.
in the meantime, enjoy these fellas:
in the meantime, enjoy these fellas:
One of my username from Chinese Social Networks starts with E,but I prefer to use "graceltelgt" at overseas network (aslo at Discord).
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