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I know this is like my fourth status update in a row, but honestly no one cares, I have a lot to say.

Besides the moral decay I see everywhere making me sad and not knowing how to approach or help friends affected by said moral decay, as well as seeing in detail my own weakness and stagnation, plus having a terrible nightmare when not having insomnia - yes, besides all that... - a certain event a few days ago, seemingly small at first, flared up and strained a rather important relationship. That's the same day I broke down and cried silently, by myself, late at night, for the first time in months. Can you say "depression"?"

Oh, by the way. Typing this on the Ascend II...guess who got their phone stolen this morning? While it was on silent with GPS off?

I have so many things on that SD card. I pray to God they find it. Lots of it is backed up somehow, but the most recent things are all gone, and the thing that pains me most is the pictures...1000 or so not stored away at all, and many of those Gardevoir pictures I still needed to upload which I may never be able to refind.

I also stabbed someone very hard in the hand with a pen today. They actually started bleeding a bit. Nothing really came of it but I instantly regretted the impulse.

So basically I keep offending/annoying/hurting people by pure accident, then I feel guilty, then that crippling guilt makes me act oddly, then I offend/annoy/hurt someone again. Fun.

Yeah, I think I can safely say that the nice period of life is gone now.

Still...it would be silly of me to lose faith now. At its core, life is a nice thing, and it goes on. I might still get my phone back, and things might turn around quicker than I think.

So I'll try not to let real life circumstances affect my actions here too much, since that's not fair to anyone. Of course, Gallery uploads will stop until I'm sure I'll never see my phone again.

Bye. Sorry for ranting so much, I actually feel a bit better now.

"Take a look inside your heart"
"What seems fair today,"
"Tomorrow it may not."

"Just a walk or a journey"
"Don’t stop reaching high."
"Don’t let the time pass you by."

Don't worry everything will get better, soon.

I'm not sure of what that means, but thanks.

I think "A good laugh and a long sleep are the two best cures for anything." is a better description here. Just have to find that laugh...

Actually, talking with a friend helps a lot. You ought to try it.

I find life goes up and down too fast. One day is great, the next it's just like, "Is it even worth living through the rest of it?" Sometimes I wish life would just slow down a little so I'd have more time to think things over. Then again, time is relative, so even if it did slow down, we'd never notice. :/

Ok I usually hate participating in this kinda talk but I needa speak up. @OmegaCopyX I absolutely cannot stand the "people have it worse than you so suck it up and stop whining" argument. We all have our different problems and handle stress differently. Your dog died? That sucks, doesn't it? I bet you feel absolutely terrible. But no wait, you're not allowed to feel bad and should shut up because Billy's grandpa has cancer. If you're having a tough time, you're allowed to feel upset about it. No matter how petty the matter may be.

And I hate to get social justicey here too but saying "you need to cheer up and see the better things in life" to someone who suffers from depression is probably one of the scummiest and insensitive things you can say. Probably because, y'know, they can't help it? 8)

Anyway I'll stop sounding like a dumb bitch. Polaris you're great. I'm sure things will get better. As I said in the thread, talk to me if you need anything.